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A few months ago, all tht my mind cared abt was gettin over with 6 exams, which had been stretched over an unecessarily long period of time and which also turned out 10 times easier than all the hype that surrounded them in the first place.

rite so get over with the boards, now wat, a week - 2, sleep eat pc glued sleep. over with that and skools on agen, eleventh grade, this should prove interestin. skool turns into an alternate way of spending ur time instead of whiling it away sleeping at home. people come there to amuse themselves, half of em mite not even last another couple of months. occasionally an adult enters the room ur sitting in and talks a bunch of words which make as much sense as a bunny singin at a rock concert. dont really care, already thinkin about the next party that weekend.

 

then they start leaving. friends you think would at least last another 2 years, but they leave. one after the other, with nothing left to hold the bonds together but a few words on msn once in a while. already been thru it, doesnt feel as bad as last time. who wldve thought that it would be easier the next time. maybe it's just the silent realisation that theres nothing i can do abt it.

 

couple o days. the 6 exams gonna talk back this time. not so scared. this had to come. but then it starts gettin to me. maybe its the parents, maybe its the relatives, maybe its the friends who're more worried than i ever was . doesnt matter. its all gonna be there for everyone to see, soon, eventually, sigh.

 

our lives change every second. the interestin part is when you turn back and look at it, the transition, is prolly a lot more than you could imagine.

ok here i was wondering whether it was the 360 or the PS3 which was doin better, and here comes the third contendor stealing the entire show.lol. Nintendo has really hit it big this time, I guess that hi-tech controller, Wii-mote got em thru the competition. newayz so i went to gamespot the other day and guess wat i tripped on.

 

"" To those following the industry, the winner should come as no surprise. From its release on November 19 until December 31, more than 1.1 million "new-gen" Wiis were sold in the US. That was nearly double the approximately 687,300 PlayStation 3s sold following its November 17 launch until the end of the year. By comparison, just over 607,000 Xbox 360s were sold in 2005 following its November 22 launch. ""

 

and here's something supporting my last post

 

""During December 2006, the 360 sold more than 1.1 million units, no doubt benefiting from scant supplies of the PS3 and the popularity of Gears of War. As of the end of 2006, Microsoft's console had sold just over 4.5 million units in the US and more than 10.4 million worldwide. ""

wow sony finally made it. but big difference that makes. Playstation 3's out and every1 gets there to buy one, but then u dunt get one even although u slept outside all night, just cuz they weren't enuf(not talkin abt myself here btw if ur beginnin to get ideas, jus the general opinion).

hmm ah well a week later u somehow manage to get it, you buy a couple of games, play a bit , but soon find out the same games when played on the x360(without blu ray btw) have either better or very competitive graphics. then you go online and check out the gaming awards....another disappointment, most of the awards go to the x360, not to mention GEARS OF WAR(x360) taking top honours for GAME OF THE YEAR. you feel like hittin yourself in the head for spending almost 2 times the money as you wld have on the x360.

 

then you remind yourself that this is just the beginning. hopefully in time sony will live up to its huge expectations. [The thought of ur friend playing Halo 3 on his 360 next year does slowly creep into ur mind but you somehow to manage to push it aside].

 There has to be a good side to this hi-tech box, there jus has to.sigh... If only you could find it...

"nothing's ever promised tomorrow today"

here's something i heard in a song, and i like the way it says something so big so simply. Live today, forget about  tomrrow, live today like its ur last. so true.

You kill your day worrying about what's gonna kill you tomrrow. Honestly, if the thing wants to kill you tomorrow at least give it the honour of doing it tomrrow and not doing it yourself today. hah.

here's another "yesterday's a wrinkle on your forehead"

you did it, its over, you move on, you forget about it, you party. so true.

it might be a part of your life forever, dun mean its got to be on your mind forever.

 

you know. you really aren't gonna get another shot at life. (I mean the reincarnation thing might sound really nice and all but) here's the deal, when you lose your life you lose it you ain't gettin it back. When you miss a chance you won't get it back. So what the hell were you sitting there and staring at it for? Its gone, so what the hell are you sitting there and crying for? It ain't here yet so chill.

 

Your life is what you make it

 

 

 

 

funny how we're all jus living dummies eh? bound to this world and everything that comes with it. why is it that it's always so difficult for us to think outside the box, so difficult for us to do something different? yes youve heard these words, well so have I. ever stopped to think about, no? well I have. And believe me it just makes you like stop and look at around at everything. but more so it make you look at yourself.

we've all been through that moment when your sitting in class and evrything the teacher's saying just slides past you, what you're really thinking is "why can't i get up, stand on this chair and scream out loud?" "whos stoppin me, i dunt see and guy with a gun."."haha, yea tht wld be funny, rite so yea what was he sayin." poof there it goes, ur moment of truth, ur chance at doing something different, ur chance at a revolution.

 

i noe what you're thinkin, omg what a load of crap. what about my career? what about my social image? what about my life? well then you're thinking the same way as everyone else. in fact, you're thinkin the way i do too. i wld never do tht, i wld rather stay in skool.

And this is exactly what im tryin to say. It's not just difficult for us to make a change, it's impossible.

You know you always hear people say how far down this worlds gone and how low people are getting. But somehow you dont really pay much attention to any of it until you actually experience some of it first hand. Until your actually get knocked in the face with some of their lies. thats when you wake up. Thats when you finally look beyond their smiley faces. Thats when you finally see the only one part of their human body which never learnt how to lie, thats when you look into their eyes, thats when you finally begin to realize a bit of whats going on around you, thats when you finally realize that eveything is not what it seems, thats when you finally realize how amazingly stupid you had been to dream, how freakishly dumb you had been to actually trust someone. Everything may seem to be fallin apart, but actually everything's actually falling into place. You finally begin to see what you had just heard of before. You finally begin to see how far gone people can get under the influence of envy, greed or something else you cant make out. ITs all just happening so fast you see that its not just one thing its actually a bit of everything. How could you have never seen any of this before? How could you have actually believed any of what they had said? how could you have been so you with someone who was so not himself, with someone who had shown you nothing more than his smiley face.

 rite...after stayin here for a while (and by here i mean riyad) u get the feelin tht this place is like cursed or smthn cuz like whenver u make a close friend he calls you the next day tellin you that hez leavin for the Us, or Canda or india... its like u can never actually maintain a friandship thts really gonna last. dunno about u guyz but thts alwayz been the thing wid me, and believe me, it totally sucks..

At the end of the day all your left with is another contact on ur MSn who u acutally look forward to chattin wid., But after a while i guess even that dies down. you never actually get to see 'em agen. And ultimately, all ur left with is like a memory of someone who was once ur friend and now is jus another dude livin it off somehwere in canda. You just have to live with it, but when you think back its like you're alwayz like losing more friendz every year. And for us people here i dunt even think we have place to come back to, cuz none of us are gonna come bak to riyad after we're dun wid skool.  Crazy country.

So if Omer,Kamu,Tharun,Salman,Melvin,Charly,Omair,Irthu,Shaubhankar are readin this, seriously miss u guyz.

 

And if this is gettin freakishly senti, then i wld aslo like to add tht i hope ur havin a BLASt rite now wherever u are